Should I capitalize the "B" in "Buddy"? or is it okay to type "buddy"? I capitalize the "J" in "Jesus" because that's what someone told me to do once. Do You even care which letters are capitalized?
Anyways, how's everything going up there? Even though You already know how things are on my end I'll go ahead and tell You anyways...... They aren't half bad right now.
I understand that because of You I am able to have an intimate and very personal relationship with You and The Father but I sometimes wonder if Y'all really care about the day to day in my life. I know You care about the day to day but do You care about the day to day? Remember that one girl I dated that one time? You know the one, every time her and I would talk we would spend half the conversation describing in detail what our days consisted of. Remember how frustrating that was to me? Is that kind of how You feel sometimes when I do the same?
I am beginning to believe that I give too much effort and thought and time and attention to so many small details of life that don't deserve that much effort, time, attention, and thought. I really feel like I am wasting a good portion of my days, and essentially my life, on such nonsense. I'm not trying to tell You that I should become this hyper-efficient super human that doesn't waste any time or energy on frivolous things, but I do feel like I give worthless things more attention than I do things of real value.
What would You say to me about this? If You were standing next to me right now what would You tell me? I'm not talking about this "I think God is telling me this" malarky. If You were literally sitting across from me in this cafe, drinking Your black, fair trade certified coffee, what would You say to me? Will You do me a favor? Say it! Audibly say it to me. I know You can. Just do it. Please? Doesn't the bible say something about Your words being all that matters? Heaven and earth shall pass away but Your words will remain forever.
Kings have murdered millions because of the words they thought You spoke to them. People have changed the course of history because they thought You said this or that. Speak to me clearly. Don't lead me, don't guide me, don't give me something I have to interpret, just say it loudly.
Is that wrong? Should I not speak to You like this? I kind of don't care any more. I just want so badly to hear Your voice louder than I ever have before, to understand beyond the shadow of a doubt that You are speaking to me.
It can be frustrating to me sometimes because I think I know how You're speaking to me but it doesn't necessarily feel like some awesome, heavenly, burning bush communication. It's more like conversations with friends that are striking my heart and leaving me driving down dark and lonely streets wondering if what was just said was from You or simply coincidence.
Go ahead, I'll do my best to listen to Your voice. I have a feeling that if You speak to me audibly I won't have to strain to listen, I'll just hear You and understand.
Alight Dude, I love You! You know my heart, don't take what I said as being disrespectful because that's not how I meant it.
I just want so much more of You!
Be Jesus...because Jesus is good. Get it?
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