When will I change the World?

I feel like I do a bad job of being a Christian. Not that I should consider it a job, but still. When I read the bible I see tasks handed out to the church such as love humanity, Love your neighbor, love your enemy, do not become the world, do not give into the flesh, stand for justice, stand for righteousness, stand for God, be Jesus, heal the sick, set the captive free, accept others, be a family, grow the church. I don’t see where it says to live a comfortable controlled life. If anything I see my life, the life of as Christian being anything but comfortable. I see myself stepping outside of my box, outside of my comfort, outside of my cares and following the Holy Spirit. I see myself standing for the word of God no matter what the consequences. I have it so easy in America, in the American Church. It is too easy to follow the path all others have followed before me. If it were not for the nagging feeling, the desire for something greater than I can imagine, the feeling that greatness in meekness stands before me, I would choose the path traveled most. Jesus never promised an easy life, He never said I could plan for smooth sailing. He said I would be persecuted for mentioning His name. My peace in the storm comes through knowing He is with me and that I will spend eternity with Him.
Throughout History I see people that stood for good causes, none as important as Jesus but still good causes. I see people that have over thrown nations that have over turned governments that have brought entire nations together in one like mind. I see religions in the middle east that are able to gather thousands of believers and hold a prayer meeting in the streets of the cities. I also see myself so afraid of selling out completely for God that I refuse to step out, refuse to take risks beyond the walls of church. I refuse to be Jesus, to share Jesus. I consider following God a Job; I look for times when I can take a break from being a Christian and I consider these times, times of freedom.
When will I rise? When will I be witness to the power of the Holy Spirit? When will I, being used by Jesus, gather thousands in the Name of God to change history? When will others think like me? When will my times of being inspired by the world change? When will inspiration come from God? When will motivation come from above without fearing the thinking of man or woman? When will I believe the bible? When will I have faith?

Jesus, I pray that You would break complacency off my life. Prevent me from perverting Your life with my selfish ways. Break my insecurities, break my cares, break my walls down and let my eyes be Your eyes.